Friday, August 20, 2010
Thought Processing...
There's been a lot of THAT going on lately. Over the past month or so I've been wondering "what am I doing? and who am I doing it for?" I sent a letter to my friend Stacey today...realizing if I posted it, it explains clearly the processing that is going on right now. Maybe you have some advice? Maybe you can give some insight...I am open. Mostly I am open to my heart right now. I finally fell back in love with myself and realized I want to make sure I am doing what I love. Don't get me wrong...I love changing lives one bed sale at a time. I wonder though if I don't like the relationship that is established between the customer and myself more....hrm.... *hamster wheel turns with squeaky sounds.*
Here is the email I sent Stacey. I hope you don't mind Stacey...
What's your dream? What do you want to do? I'm asking myself the same things.... OMG. Everything is leading me to want to go back to school. How does one survive going back to school though? How do I live if mom won't let me go back to school and work for her? I really liked listening to Steve Jobs speech at Stanford, "How to live before you die." ( http://www.ted.com/talks/steve_jobs_how_to_live_before_you_die.html ) I can definitely look back into my past and see some dots connecting. I wish you lived up here....Seriously. I wish that so bad that I might one day cause an earthquake in the Oregon/NorCal region that would swallow that area up whole so that The Bay would be just south of the Puget Sound. We would be neighbors. We could have our own little village, and raise our beautiful boys together. I'm a dreamer says Adrian, which is totally true. I feel like "possibility" was smashed out of me in my teen years, and everyone assumed I wanted to take over the family business. The part of me that is comfortable doing what I am doing and earning an income says "keep doing it!" The part of me that now sees possibility (thanks in part to Landmark) says "FUCKIN FLY!! Do what you want to do because there is no one like you!" This voice is getting louder by the day...
Sent from my iPhone
Here is the email I sent Stacey. I hope you don't mind Stacey...
What's your dream? What do you want to do? I'm asking myself the same things.... OMG. Everything is leading me to want to go back to school. How does one survive going back to school though? How do I live if mom won't let me go back to school and work for her? I really liked listening to Steve Jobs speech at Stanford, "How to live before you die." ( http://www.ted.com/talks/steve_jobs_how_to_live_before_you_die.html ) I can definitely look back into my past and see some dots connecting. I wish you lived up here....Seriously. I wish that so bad that I might one day cause an earthquake in the Oregon/NorCal region that would swallow that area up whole so that The Bay would be just south of the Puget Sound. We would be neighbors. We could have our own little village, and raise our beautiful boys together. I'm a dreamer says Adrian, which is totally true. I feel like "possibility" was smashed out of me in my teen years, and everyone assumed I wanted to take over the family business. The part of me that is comfortable doing what I am doing and earning an income says "keep doing it!" The part of me that now sees possibility (thanks in part to Landmark) says "FUCKIN FLY!! Do what you want to do because there is no one like you!" This voice is getting louder by the day...
Sent from my iPhone
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)